Halloween 

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Aching muscles from yesterday but turned up all the same today. Exercise is the best medicine I’ve decided. It strengthens the body and the mind. Every workout is a battle both physically and mentally. My lungs and heart are pushed.. strengthening my cardiovascular system – this can be life saving for someone living with anaphylaxis – the more oxygen I can absorb the longer I have for the epipen to work. And all of this battle = fatigue. I go home tired and am able to fall asleep – which for an insomniac on medication doesn’t always happen. Ps Halloween is always a bit of fun.. costumes and work out haha.

Falafel

Delicious. Sweet potato (instead of bread), falafel, goats cheese, rocket, cucumber… yum! Well done Mum! She looks up recipes and modifies them to ensure they’re Chloe friendly. So blessed.


Tears

I’ve never understood why people fear tears. They don’t hurt you. They don’t hurt anyone. Mostly they relieve you of the built up pressure inside. They calm you. I know that there are plenty of people who don’t cry often or easily- that’s okay too. There shouldn’t be judgement over tears. If you need to cry. Cry. 


When you’ve finished crying.. get up and fight again. Tears are not a form of weakness and nothing to be ashamed of. When you’re ready, wipe your eyes and face the next challenge head on. 

Tears

I’ve never understood why people fear tears. They don’t hurt you. They don’t hurt anyone. Mostly they relieve you of the built up pressure inside. They calm you. I know that there are plenty of people who don’t cry often or easily- that’s okay too. There shouldn’t be judgement over tears. If you need to cry. Cry. 


When you’ve finished crying.. get up and fight again. Tears are not a form of weakness and nothing to be ashamed of. When you’re ready, wipe your eyes and face the next challenge head on. 

Tears

I’ve never understood why people fear tears. They don’t hurt you. They don’t hurt anyone. Mostly they relieve you of the built up pressure inside. They calm you. I know that there are plenty of people who don’t cry often or easily- that’s okay too. There shouldn’t be judgement over tears. If you need to cry. Cry. 


When you’ve finished crying.. get up and fight again. Tears are not a form of weakness and nothing to be ashamed of. When you’re ready, wipe your eyes and face the next challenge head on. 

It’s my life

It’s My Life – Bon Jovi

This song.. always hits home to me. It came on last night at the gym and it reminded me that this is my life. And I’m going to live it my way. Sometimes I think we all get stuck in whatever is happening and we start just going with the flow. When we stop and look around we have lost sight of the goal we were once seeking. We have taken a different path, lost track, and become displaced. It’s not always a bad thing but is it what you want? 

This song makes me stop. It makes me think about where I want to go. How I want to live and who I want to be. Not always a pleasant or comfortable experience realising you’ve gotten lost in the commotion. But it’s a very necessary thing too. 

I wonder if this happens to anyone else? Maybe there’s a particular song that makes you stop and reasses your life? 


Lyrics

This ain’t a song for the broken-hearted

No silent prayer for the faith-departed

I ain’t gonna be just a face in the crowd

You’re gonna hear my voice

When I shout it out loud

It’s my life

It’s now or never

I ain’t gonna live forever

I just want to live while I’m alive

(It’s my life)

My heart is like an open highway

Like Frankie said

I did it my way

I just want to live while I’m alive

It’s my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground

It’s for Tommy and Gina who never backed down

Tomorrow’s getting harder, make no mistake

Luck ain’t enough

You’ve got to make your own breaks

It’s my life

And it’s now or never

I ain’t gonna live forever

I just want to live while I’m alive

(It’s my life)

My heart is like an open highway

Like Frankie said

I did it my way

I just want to live while I’m alive

It’s my life

You better stand tall when they’re calling you out

Don’t bend, don’t break, baby, don’t back down

It’s my life

And it’s now or never

I ain’t gonna live forever

I just want to live while I’m alive

(It’s my life)

My heart is like an open highway

Like Frankie said

I did it my way

I just want to live while I’m alive

(It’s my life)

Self Compassion 

Once I would have said that comparison is part of human nature. Recently I have come to the realisation that it isn’t something we are all born with. It is something that society has taught us.

If each of us stopped comparing ourselves to others I’m sure we would feel better about ourselves and therefore more comfortable with each other. Does it matter that your friend is taller than you? Slimmer than you are? Or faster? Or stronger? What should matter is whatever task you’re applying yourself to is your own journey. As long as you do your best – that’s enough. 

And to know that your best is enough.. that would be enlightening. Who are you trying to impress? Who is your harshest critic? I bet it’s not your friends – I would think your harshest critic is actually yourself. 

Stop beating yourself up. Learn to have self compassion. You are trying your best. You are not competing against anyone else. You will have your ups and downs but you are human. You are stronger than you think. Be kind to yourself.

You might be a glorious mess – that’s okay. That glorious mess is enough. If your friend was in the same situation as you are now  – would you judge them? Would you treat them harshly? Say terrible things to them? No, you wouldn’t. So why would you do that to yourself?

Remember who you are. This sounds simple and strange really – but it’s not. If you spend all your time comparing yourself to others you begin to lose sight of what makes you special. 

Your self worth comes from you. Sounds simple right? Yet many of us seek the approval of others. We value their opinions about ourselves more than we value our own. Why? The only person who knows your whole journey is you. So why is your opinion of lesser value? 

You are YOU. You alone are special, unique, and amazing. Your super power is that you’re an individual. You need to believe that you are deserving of compassion, respect, and love. You don’t need someone else to provide these things for you. You have the power to do this on your own. You need to trust yourself.

Respect yourself and treat yourself with kindness. When you can do this.. nothing will stop you. You will also then be able to show this love and compassion to others without comparing yourself and your journey to everyone else. 

Show your soul the unconditional love that you show your family and friends. 

You have a big heart and there’s enough love in it to share some with yourself.