Mangoes and Blooms

Summer and mangoes.. my favourite time of year is only just beginning. Thanks Mum for my mango 😊The flowers are in bloom.. the middle of Spring and so many colours can be seen. Lucky to have such a beautiful garden. 


We live in a beautiful world – sometimes it’s easy to forget just how fortunate we truly are. I am infinitely grateful for so much in my life – my family, my friends, my home.. my world.

Stand by Me

I am truly blessed to have beautiful friends. And when I think of friends – this song comes to mind. Finding strength in friends is such a blessing. 

Lyrics 

When the night has come

And the land is dark

And the moon is the only light we see

No I won’t be afraid

No I won’t be afraid

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darling, darling stand by me

Oh, now, now, stand by me

Stand by me, stand by me

If the sky that we look upon

Should tumble and fall

And the mountain should crumble to the sea

I won’t cry, I won’t cry

No I won’t shed a tear

Just as long as you stand, stand by me

And darling, darling stand by me

Oh, stand by me

Stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Whenever you’re in trouble won’t you stand by me

Oh, now, now, stand by me

Oh, stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Darling, darling stand by me

Stand by me

Oh stand by me, stand by me, stand by me

Ben E King – Stand by Me

Plot Twist

It’s possible that we could all turn into a bunch of bitter lemons after we experience injustice, heartache, and trauma. But it’s also possible to learn from these experiences and become stronger, better people. I think it’s a choice that each individual person must make. 


I knew that I had hit rock bottom a few weeks back. But I also knew that I would never stay there. The last few weeks I have been kicking my little legs as hard as I could to resurface and breathe the air above. It is not our situation that defines who we are but it’s how we respond. 


I know that there is plenty to learn from this. Right now, I know I’m not through it yet.. but I have already learnt so much about myself. I have learnt that I have a heart full of courage. I’ve been terrified. But I have also stood up for myself. I might have cried – a lot. But I never gave up and I know that I never will. 

As the quote above clearly states – you cannot show courage without first being fearful. Fear isn’t something to be ashamed of. I can’t help but worry or be fearful, but I can choose to continue to find the courage to overcome each obstacle. 

My life is my book. I have had many contributing authors to my life’s story. Mostly those authors have been friends and loved ones who have added sugar, and spice, and everything nice to my tale. But I’ve also had others throw buckets of ice cold water upon me and scream out ‘plot twist!’. It’s these chapters that have always been the hardest to complete. But they’ve also been valuable to my book – it gives me a chance to grow, it pushes me in a new direction, it alters my life completely. 


Plot twists aren’t easy. I’m sure everyone has experienced at least one plot twist in their life time. It’s a time where we need to learn to adapt to our new path. It’s a time where we learn what truly dwells in our hearts. I haven’t ever had a truly seamless transition from one twist to the next path. But I always get there in the end. This doesn’t mean that I lack strength or courage – I know I have both. Nor does it mean that I have ever given up. I haven’t. Sometimes we all need time to transition. To retrain our thought patterns. Time to embrace the mystery of the future.


I can’t say that I love mysteries – I like to solve them yes. But to live in mystery – alas, that is hard. I’m grateful to those who have and who are currently supporting me as I untangle the enigma that is my current life situation.

Moana!

A while ago, a friend’s little daughter was in hospital with the flu. And to cheer her up I drew her a picture of her favourite movie star… Moana. Today I received the cutest package in the mail! 


This goes to show that a good deed never goes unnoticed. I didn’t expect anything in return and was blown away with the time and effort that little Leah put into my special gift. I was in need of a cheer up and it certainly bought a smile to my lips. Thank you 💜

Ready to Bloom

The truest advice that I have had in a while. My life is changing and I need to adapt and move along too. Change can be difficult but it can also lead you to something beautiful.

I have felt buried alive lately, but perhaps I’m really just a little seed that has been planted in the ground and as I grow, I will become stronger, more vibrant, and finally bloom. 

I will learn to bloom, brighter than ever before. But first I need to shoot up through that dark soil to find the surface, and from there I can grow and be strong. I can breathe the fresh air, and feel the sunlight once more. 

Resilience 

Lately I have experienced the ‘knocked down’ part of this quote. I am sure everyone feels it at least once in their lifetime. I know that I have. I also know that I have gotten back up many times over. This time has been my hardest to get back up. It doesn’t mean that I had ever completely given up it just means that my usual coping strategies had become annulled. I am usually a very resilient person who springs back into the game of life as if I had special bouncy boots on my feet. I usually try to find the positive in every situation and find something to be grateful for.

And as the quote above does truthfully state sometimes you don’t really know or fully understand the value of a moment until it becomes a memory. I’m learning to find value in this very long, and rather painful moment. I have found that I am actually surrounded by the most beautiful, kind, and giving hearts imaginable.


Now I’m not quite sure that I have screwed up but I do know that my life has been especially challenging the last few weeks. But the amount of people who have come forth to tell me they care, to check in, to ask if I’m okay – has been overwhelming. Sometimes I feel like the universe is trying to realign itself and sort out these challenges by showing the person who is suffering that just because they are feeling as if the darkness is engulfing them that there is also a force of light trying to break through that person’s never ending night.


There is plenty of light. My friends, my loved ones, my animals, and even those around me who don’t know me so well – have offered to share the light to help me regain my strength and my will. 


These people have literally been little candles. Giving me some spark to reignite my flame. It’s hard – usually I’m the one trying to cheer others up and help get people back on their feet. It’s hard to admit that I am the vulnerable one right now. I have a weakness too. I never thought I was bullet proof but I also never thought I’d be so full of bullet holes and unsure of which to patch up first. But then again without these wounds.. I’d never know how strong my will to survive was either. It might take time to restitch each bullet wound, but I know I won’t be alone completing this task.

And then the humbling part of this long drawn out post hits home. My struggles that appear so big in my mind are so insignificant compared to what others have gone through. 


I speak of bullet wounds as a metaphor… yet my wounds are minor – not even a scratch compared to some of the most courageous souls who walk this earth. 


I know my courage is greater than my fear. I know that I must be strong. My story is nothing compared to those living through war, famine, natural disasters,.. I fear the unknown but I cannot imagine what those who have had their lives literally torn asunder are going through. I will own my story. I will choose what will happen in the next chapter and I will grow and learn from this chapter.

I will also never forget those who came forth to help me when I didn’t know how to help myself. 

Reach Out

To the beautiful, kind souls who continue to reach out to those who aren’t feeling their best – you make this world a better place. Never change. That love is very heart felt. 

Resilience 

This is true. Everyone has their own battle they are currently fighting. No one is exempt from issues – but how we deal with them is our own choice. I’m grateful to be surrounded by strong, encouraging people. I’m learning to find my inner strength and increase my resilience.